I got a lot on my chest.
Man I can’t lie I’m depressed.
Praying to God for the strength.
I lift my arms hoping I can bench press.
Yes.

Smoking a lot of the press-ure.
Vacations - I need to get.
Work overload - I been stressed.
Overboard - tend to forget.

Bored over things I have yet to complete.
Fearing meetings I have yet to attend.
Especially that one with G-O-D. Know He seeing me.
But am I hell-bent?

Destined to burn for eternity, swerving family.
Feelings ain’t been the best.
Hope it gets better before I am dead.
A lot on my conscious, but what can I do? All has been said.

A lot has been done. Know a lot of love lost for the son.
Even though I’m bright I feel so dumb.
Even though I’m right why I feel wrong?
Lot of gaslighting. Time has passed writing bout what has come.

I can’t even be-gin. Heart has done a lot of leaking.
So I’m peaking, through the hole in my soul, lot a demons they been peeking.
They been creeping.
They been creeping.
Hollow - weaning off the fiending- this is the end.
I don’t need them.
Halloween around the corner - coroners see him, but
I can’t be them.
No I can’t be dead.

So alive yeah I’m so alive. (x2)
Left a lot behind behind. So alive. So I’m so alive.
Left a lot of my life - behind. I can’t rewind no.
I won’t rewind. (X2)

Back to the past. You gotta die to get a vision of that.
Gotta trip to get the visual path. Lot of thinking
otherwise - it’s a map.
All in your head man it’s all your head. You know man plans, God laughs.
Til you beaten off the path. Accepting whatever comes is where I been at.

I need a better gun to shoot the top 50 charts up - get the strap.
Bout 50 hearts I need to get back.
Broken, hoping I don’t relapse.
Soak in the potion, get lost in all of my motions.
Just cause I’m feeling so hopeless, just cause I’m thinking I’m meant to be in omens.
Meant to be lower than the lowest.
Cloaking. Hiding behind the scenes.

I never cared much for apologies.
Rather we run through a pile of tree.
Discuss it all - positively.
I’m not with the violence, I’m all for the peace.
Let it be.
Let it be.
Tryna beat the beetles, that work hard. So, right there I’ll leave you.
You got your cards, know you played them so hard.
You played with mine, yeah you tried to discard.

No I can’t lie. It taught me a lot.
Swear I’m just like you. Swear all my energy focused on rivals.
But I been changing that. Wanna grow like you.
Wanna be bigger than all that I’ve been.
Represent those in our situation. Yeah.
I know you struggling. It’s okay - we all struggling.
Busting our humps in this so-ciety. Still do not want to be coveted.

I just wan' rake all the budgets in.
Help those out - that need it.
Invest in self as needed.
Calculate - math decent.

I can’t rewind rewind. But I study it.
Don’t let me bring any buddies in. We gon be here till the sun in here.
Yeah yeah
So alive. So so, alive
Left a lot behind. I won’t rewind. No I can’t rewind. No.

Let a lot of my life behind no, I can’t
I can’t rewind.
So alive, so so alive. I won’t.
Oh whoa