"I been steady drinking.
I been steady thinking.
I been ready, on the brink, I - rather sink.
Sometimes I rather stink.
Sometimes I rather. Damn.
I rather not think, not think.

Not drink, not drink.
Not think, pop (tings) - pop?!
Trust me I don’t need a lot.
(But I rather)
Have you, girl I rather have you… have you oh.

Still I’m steady drinking.
I been steady thinking.
I been ready, on the brink, I - rather sink.
Sometimes I rather sing.
Sometimes I rather. Damn.
I rather not think, not think.

Not drink, not drink.
Not think, pop -
Trust me I don’t need a lot.
(No I rather, I rather)
No, no I don’t need a lot.
Just gotta have you. Baby just gotta

5/1/22
Listen, who you been with in the kitchen?
Even though we changed decor up, went a few more floors up.
Views and the newest shoes to travel in, the bluest blues I’m battling,
Is when I lose control. Do the most or just coping with it.

Still waiting on that raise, I ain’t joking, isn’t it - past due?
Since last June, I been mad, boo.
it’s not you, not you. Though
You my body, other half I cannot choose yo.

No I neeeed you. Can’t believe you would even choose someone else.
That’s what you tell me but I was married to embarrassing stunts.
Now we wed and the weed we steam a variable bunch.
No longer shortening buzzes. The love’s more than enough.

And whenever I’m with you, girl it’s more than a rush.
Give me tears, got me thinking bout opening up.
Got me vulnerable fuck…
Cause…
Remember how you had me, had me…
Ugh

Had me steady drinking.
Had me steady thinking.
Had me ready, on the brink of -
Tryna link up.
Sometimes I rather sync in person.
You know how we did it.
Lurking.
You the only one that’s worth it.

We was the good guys.
Incredible how we surmounted as family.
Damn and peep the panhandling energy, especially from enemies.
Got me steady staring, don’t ever blink.
Looking round, surveying. On my capitán, no don’t dap me now.
I just won’t come around
I just won’t come around.
No

Sometimes I rather sink.
Sometimes I rather. Damn.
I rather not think, not think. (Fuck em)

Not drink, not drink.
Not think, pop -
Trust me I don’t need a lot.
(No I rather, have)
No, no I don’t need a lot.
I rather - ha!

JUST SOME
HAVES AND HAVE NOTS,
UNDER THOUGHT.
CONSUMED - DRAWN.
IN TUNE, TWO GONE."

- Joshua Perez